Anna Ash - Holding Out

I don't have a reason
I don't feel the seasons
I don't have the feeling right
To be fooling anyone tonight

So baby lock your doors up
Baby shut your heart off
Baby just let this one go
I'm gonna drive to the beach
And sleep somewhere expensive alone

I'll be driving from the eastside
Driving through some floodlights
Driving like I always drive
In all these old cars that start shaking at sixty-five
Why would I dare stay
When you know my voice shakes when I lie

Wish I could tell you what I'm needing
Tell you what I'm wanting
Tell you what I've never had
But if you gave it all to me
I wouldn't want you nearly as bad

No it's not the end
And no it's not the start
And no it's not the time to cry
It ain't gonna kill you
To sleep alone once in a while

And I don't have a reason
I can't blame the seasons
And damnit don't tell me I didn't try
Why would I dare stay
When you know my voice shakes when I lie