A.O. Gerber - Tell Me

tell me
do you get up in the mornings
without first checking your cell screen?
do you start every day new?

tell me
do you make pancakes and coffee?
if i don't eat will you judge me?
it's just that my face is filling out
and i've never known how to take

care of myself in the mornings
when defenses are high and i'm still
dreaming things changed
take care of myself in the mornings
so i'm not erased

every night when i go under covers
i take off my clothes undercover
it's easier just not to see

and the nights when i go undercover
and touch myself under the covers
i dream that you love what you see

and at least when i come i can
face into the quiet of the evening
when defenses are low and
i'm wishing i'd change
and into the quiet of the evening
i'll be erased

what do you think when
you're walking alone in
the gloaming? i want to escape to
the place where i live in your mind

cause when you
get drunk and say something about bowie
i don't understand but i want to
and i think i feel your eyes
getting tired of me

and i want
a love that's embarrassing
i want
to know my own limits
cause i want
more than i know how to give

so tell me
do you think that you could love me?
do you see something that's something?
or do you see nothing at all?

and at least when i come i can
face into the quiet of the evening
for two seconds i'm drenched in
a love that's my own
and into the quiet of the evening
i'll find home

tell me
can we make love in the morning?
fuck eating pancakes and coffee
i just want to drown in
the light