Uncertaincy of Existance - The Existantial Cage

It's too late to realize that I was mistaken.
I'm confined within the cage, which no one escapes from.
I couldn't be released from the sorrow and pleasure of existing.
Will the time come when I am embraced by you?

I'm falling down into the abyss.
I'm furious at you.
I'm falling down into the darkness.
I sink into sorrow.
The memories of agony and the memories of sadness.
Since these false memories came into my mind, my thoughts have been dim.

I can never ever forget them.
I will continue to be in anguish over my existing.
Memories completely control my mind that violate my fundamental right to exist.

From the top of the heap of corpses I see, I turn my thoughts toward you, dreaming of the day that I will be asleep beside you.
The sins you imposed on me. I'll never forget your brutal treatments.
I'll kill you and look upon your anguished face.

Memories transformed into feelings in my mind.
I was confused and insane.
The transition messed up my thoughts.
My mind mixed with others, and I couldn't separate mine from the others.

The false memories have been overloading my senses, and it forces me to distort facts.
It keeps spreading in my mind until my consciousness vanishes away.

The more desperately I yearn for the dim light, the further it seems to be.
Will I accept all the pain and agony?
Will I love myself and this world to death?
I‘ll dance with these corpses of mine to keep sane and keep existing.