Galahad - The Long Goodbye

Standing in a place that I should know
But it doesn't seem at all familiar
I dare not move for a moment
Whilst I'm trying to get some kind of bearing
To recognize these shapes and these shadows
I can see and thought I knew
Now panic is setting in as I still can't work it out
And a mass of jumbled thoughts are running through my head
Confusing and so disorientating
And suddenly everything has all gone blank

Recognition and communication systems appear to be failing
The wiring inside me is slowly becoming faulty
My being is slowly disappearing

I'm filling up this thing that makes the water go hot
To make some drinks for people in another room whose names escape me
I know that I should know them but I don't recognize their faces
Even the words and the conversations seem so alien to me

I don't know who I am
I can't even recall my name
I don't know what I've ever done
I don't know where I've come from

Although I feel warm and cozy in what I think is my home
So many people around me are giving me so much love and affection
But it makes me feel so nervous as I don't know who I can trust
Constantly Feeling anxious, constantly feeling afraid and alone

I don't know who I am
I can't even recall my name
I don't know what I've ever done
I don't know where I've come from

No, I don't know who I am
I don't even know about my history
I can't even think about my future
I am just here in the now and that is all

In rare moments of lucidity which pepper my universe of darkness
Trying to piece together a world that I once knew, embraced and loved
Trying to remember and picture those in my life who loved me too
I hope so much that they are the ones who surround me now until I leave for the last time

I don't remember, I don't recall
I got no memory of anything at all
Anything at all
Goodnight
Goodbye……