Lala Sadii - If You Only Knew

I walked by that old cafe the one we used to go to
I won't lie
You should have seen my face I thought I saw you
My mind was in denial but now I wanna talk
Oh I, I Guess I'm missing you more than I thought


Wish that I wasn't so guarded
Is it too late to be honest
Cause

Chorus
If you only knew
Knew I was drowning, dancing around the ugly truth
I'm not blaming you
Cause I had my demons you just didn't see them like I do
If I could go back and change one thing wouldn't have buried my secrets
I'd write you a letter about everything
Holding my breath while you read it
If you only knew
I might still have you


Been through steps 1 and 2 of grief I'm going through it
Are you still bargaining like me then feeling stupid
About the should'ves the could'ves the what ifs the buy ifs the maybes
It's hard to accept that it could've been amazing

Chorus
If you only knew
Knew I was drowning, dancing around the ugly truth
I'm not blaming you
Cause I had my demons you just didn't see them like I do
If I could go back and change one thing wouldn't have buried my secrets
I'd write you a letter about everything
holding my breath while you read it
If you only knew
I might still have you