Rat Tally - Feel Something

I keep myself confined you already know why
I want to breathe and die all at the same time
And I've lost my head before
Clawing at my face in the mirror
I can't help it, it's never enough anymore

Cause I just want to feel something
Even If I end up spitting out blood
I told you you'd get used to it
I think I always knew you never would

Tell everyone I'm fine it's not like the last time
Ignoring all the signs cause I'll say anything to make it right
And I won't pretend like I don't know
That I'm down for the count and you've been keeping score
I'll say I can't help it, it's not like you didn't know before

But I just want to feel something
Even if I end up spitting out blood
I told you you'd get used to it
I think I always knew you never would

But I just want to feel something
Even if you end up spitting out blood
When you're finally done with it
I'll tell you I always knew one day you'd run