Call To Preserve - Holding Embers

I said I'd never go back again
I'm holding embers in my hands
It was compromise after compromise
I pulled closer and still nothing satisfied
Every attempt to feel something
Pushes you further away
I can't recognize myself
I became someone else

I pushed it further than I thought I ever would
The fool, the coward, the shameful son
I pushed it further just to find I lost myself
I became someone else

Waking up wanting to start again
I'm holding my head in my hands
But the days trail behind
My eyes forever fixed, my gaze forever fixed
Every attempt to feel something
Pushes you further away
I can't recognize myself
I became someone else

Just cut me down to where I belong
I need the strength to forgive myself /x2

I pushed it further than I thought I ever would
The fool, the coward, the shameful son
I pushed it further just to find I lost myself
I became someone else