Aʒur - Oda Do Istnienia

Everything that once tore me has withdrawn its claws
Eyes in fear slowly closed before me
I defeated them with my pen, ruining paper—the tool of crime
I'll start to regret when it silently throws me onto the sidewalk

That's how it was that cold night, the moon shone quite dimly
With a bottle in hand, crying whether to go left or to move right
And if people tell you that you must be different, they don't know you
You are everything or nothing, either they will destroy you or love you
And if someone comes who begins to block the tears in your eyes
They will blind you and disappear when you shout at them, "Lead!"
At that moment, nothing matters whether feelings or chemistry
Stabs won't help when your world stops

Time will slow, the lights will go out, here are the clouds—black as writing
Before the gates of heaven gleam, you know the end is so very near
Your whole life—past, present, future—swiftly sinks
Your thoughts will blaze above the leap from the balcony

You return with her in your mind, waiting until she appears in a dream
Alabaster glow of the screen as you click the send button
Hugging the pillow, you whisper into the abyss the word "God"
He also won't help you, you know He can do nothing

I've stood on the edges of consciousness
Engulfed in the inks of worthless pens
That I would waste on short verses
In poems about love
Where the word appears maybe eight times
I covered my possible consequences
To turn them into dreams
And in the confusion of this blue
Sheet that tears sorrow
To possess and look once more
At what something you love looks like
But not cherish
Thus, I write in honor of existence