Bedbug - Life like getting older

i look up to jupiter
she sees me in saturn
her heart beats like a pattern
or something less mechanical
our veins mapped out like subway cars
and how'd you think they get so far
when everything's in motion
and i'm feeling kinda rushed, kid
im 21 and useless

its a good thing i get manic
a couple minutes every hour
cause everything is messy
the world is full of broken things
i still love it
and no one stands above it
and if i joined a party and ill start hanging out less
do you think anyone will notice

theres lilacs in my body
the pictures all move freely
lifes like bigger screens that
you all watch without me
can you see the seasons leaving
well, everything is changing
and everyone's always changing
except this Allston basement
im 21 i hate this
I'm alone and i am weightless

The northeast is my cradle
The woodlands feed me maples
Youll do grad school in Seattle
And I'll stay here forever
And one day you'll remember
Waking up over and over
It's a pretty vivid picture
that your aunt gave you for Christmas
cause you asked for a different sweater
something more your color
Something for that weather when your cold and in bed later

And the thunder outside is crying but the rain is pouring upwards
And as you step outside you lose your mind your shirt balloons with water
You thought about that album
called love and long lost children
called mother natures daughter
called no one's ever known her
And you will float to heaven
And you'll count to 27
And you'll awake again at 50
And i wonder if your lonely