Disparity - Surface

My darling, I'm sorry for everything I put you through.
I need to know you're as apathetic as I am.
These last six weeks have taken their toll on me.

I tried, to nurse the seed we grew.
Now I know some life is never meant to bloom.

Please just lay me to rest, in the coffin we shared and let our bones grow old in your company together.
Now I know we were never meant to spend this first one together.

How many times can we shake the dust of ourselves,
When we fell at the first hurdle, and the next four after that,
Always extending the helping hand to one another,
Just to turn our backs and that very same hand then clenches and retracts.

I haven't felt myself.
I'm not saying you're too blame but it hurts all the same.
I haven't felt myself.
I'm not saying you're too blame but it hurts.
It hurts the fucking same.
(I feel like I've been caught in the undertoe)

I haven't felt myself.
I'm not saying you're too blame but it hurts all the same.

I'm constantly sinking, as this pain keeps growing and the cavity in my chest keeps shrinking
I haven't felt myself.
I'm not saying you're too blame but it hurts all the same.