Drive Me Home Please - Infinite Tsukuyomi

I’ve been focusing on writing more, im trying to not feel so out of it
because that’s what helps me breathe more than anything
i just want to feel like i am heading in the right direction again

but I don’t have the time to do full time
because I already made up my mind
about How I’m gonna spend my life
and Im still not so sure if it’s really the best thing for me
after all, it Never made me happy it just gave me something to think about
Something gave me purpose and im holding onto that
but All the while i need this project to keep me alive

This is the most alone i’ve ever been
and Im still not so sure how im handling it
weeks on end alone does every sober night feel this dark
well i Hope i can get back into the swing of things and bring the glory days back to me
i just Hope it’s not too late, i just hope im not too late

I hate the fact that i cant eat breakfast right now
because i Feel like throwing up not for any reason in particular
this is just How i wake up but ill force it down anyway like i always do
because There are certain real world things that i really need to do today
and i Know i wont feel better in the three hours
without anything inside me

and whhen did i get so anxiouus??