Eddie Clutch - Blaming Myself

Blaming Myself
Blaming Myself

Yeah
I've Been Blaming Myself (Hey)
Losing control just to find you
I've Been Blaming Myself
Yeah
Woah

Pop another perky not to feel a thing
Rolling up this blunt just to feel the pain
Hop up in this whip we gon drive for days

Hey
Yeah
Hey
Yeah

I've Been Blaming Myself
Losing control just to find you
(Just to find you)
Just to find you

Hey
I've Been Blaming Myself
(Whoa Whoa)
I've been tryna change just for you

She said baby are you sober
I tell her no
I've been counting all these bands
Like baby this ain't over
She said baby can I bring my friends
She said baby let me hop inside that motherfucking Benz

Yeah
I've Been Blaming Myself (Hey)
Losing control just to find you
I've Been Blaming Myself
Yeah
Woah

Pop another perky not to feel a thing
Rolling up this blunt just to feel the pain
Hop up in this whip we gon drive for days

Hey
Yeah
Hey
Yeah

I've Been Blaming Myself
Losing control just to find you
(Just to find you)
Just to find you

Hey
I've Been Blaming Myself
(Whoa Whoa)
I've been tryna change just for you

I guess this is Luxury now
I guess I'm supposed to be proud
I still wear my heart like a crown
Still pretending you're still around
I think I'm going back to my old ways
I'm still missing all of them old days
Moments now that I'm trying to cherish
Still having nightmares that I'll perish
Lately I've been doing some reflecting
Focusing on stuff I've been deflecting
Maybe song ideas, inspiration
Better my future, motivation
Now I'm feeling that nobody wants me
Those last few hours will forever haunt me
You promised me you'd never leave baby
Like a cheesy love scene from the late 80's
I'm living in the past KAJ to Lew Alcindor
Cross you up and skyhook for the game winner
Maybe I was too immature for this game
Getting all star struck from rising to fame
But we was just kids for goodness sakes
So of course we'll make some mistakes
But it's how we learn and recover from all of this is what 's gonna decide all of our fates
So I brought #ClutchTime back together so you know I'm gonna come back with all of the heat
But it's the lyrics I speak that defines who I am as a rapper and this message I preach
But baby for better or worse we got to admit that we were getting a little bit toxic
Maybe it was the addiction inside of my head or the fact that I just could not stop it
I'm a shell of my former self dealing badly with mental health
In a world of hell cause I'm too scared to get help
Had to battle my demons but couldn't handle them
I'm feeling like my life is a tragic story like Anakin's
But the more I change my life around and just come in clutch
Sets me up for failure and then I just fuck it up
Then I belittle myself then I'm killing myself
Cause I continue just to Blame Myself

Yeah
I've Been Blaming Myself
Losing control just to find you
I've Been Blaming Myself
Yeah
Woah

#ClutchTime