Levi Weaver - I Am Certain I Am a Train

I am a cup of rotten coffee, my thoughts are floating on my head
and if you drink them in and chew them up, they're only gonna make you sick
I've lived my life like blackout bingo; trying on each home I thought might fit.
Now there's a bean on every square, but someone's telling me I still can't win.

I've left // When I thought leaving made things right.
I've quit // When quitting meant I didn't start a fight.
I've spent // Half my wrist erasing what I write
half my days ashamed of half my nights
half my life escaping from my life.

I've paid admission to the places I have loved by pawning off pieces of my heart
til I'm smeared across a globe with little hope of recovering half my parts.
I've spent entire years behind a wheel wondering why it is I drive so hard.
til I'm no closer to an answer, ten years later, than the day I tried to start.

I've left // When I thought leaving made things right.
I've quit // When quitting meant I didn't start a fight.
I've spent // Half my wrist erasing what I write
half my days ashamed of half my nights
half my life escaping from my life

Sometimes I'm certain I'm a train filled with strangers
And we're all searching for a home we've never seen
So I'll keep whistling my so-ong low and pretty
And we'll keep stumbling through the night
like tunnels searching for the light.

I've left // When I thought leaving made things right.
I've quit // When quitting meant I didn't start a fight.
I've spent // Half my wrist erasing what I write
half my days ashamed of half my nights
half my life escaping from my life