Madmans Esprit - Bitter

How could I know what it means to be alive?
Whats crouching behind this innocence, a daydream of the childhood that passed by
I do not understand how you can smile
If loving myself is the answer, you know I will never be redeemed

What should Ive done, when its how everythings supposed to be?
That someone cries
That someone dies, but that someone always wants to live
I do not understand how you can smile
If closing my eyes is the answer, you know I will never be redeemed

경직된 목소리로 이야기하는 이상향
스스로를 경멸하는 박애주의자의 모순
사실은 이미 싹이 튼 인간혐오, 애처로운 자기변호
하지만 이렇게라도 하지 않으면 살아있는 것을 견딜 수가 없는걸
But why is it always so bitter?
사랑하고 싶은 만큼 더해지는 경멸

When life is what brings us to death
희망한 만큼 깊어지는 절망

What should I do, when all the hopes in life are turning into despair?
Its nobody elses pain but mine
I rot alone
I started not to care anymore, now theres no reason to cry
No reason to laugh, no reason to live
Anyways, no one will ever be redeemed

내게 그 빛을 증명해줘
이 부폐한 삶과 고통을 되낳는 이 존재에 어떤 가치가 있다는걸
내게 보여줘
사랑하고 싶지만
우리는 마주보는 거울, 열매를 맺지 못하는 애증의 연속성

How could I know what it means to be alive?
Whats crouching behind this innocence, a daydream of the childhood that passed by
I do not understand how you can smile
If loving myself is the answer, you know I will never be redeemed

What should Ive done, when its how everythings supposed to be?
That someone cries
That someone dies, but that someone always wants to live
I do not understand how you can smile
If closing my eyes is the answer, you know I will never be redeemed

What should I do, when all the hopes in life are turning into despair?
Its nobody elses pain but mine
I rot alone
I started not to care anymore, now theres no reason to cry
No reason to laugh, no reason to live
Anyways, no one will ever be redeemed