Ophidian - Who am I

My guide has left me
He gave me no advice
As I stood there in my ignorance
Planted seeds of depression
Conquered those emotions
I could feel the spreading fields of indifference
From white to black my world turned into grey
Every former perception took refuge in the deepest void
Where is the way
I will find a solution
Not yet ready to choose the exit the search goes on
Tell me who am I
Just unable to see
The meanness and the beauty
Creating destiny
Tell me who am I
Just unable to be
This conscious person
Apart from insanity
I've arrived at a point where it seems to be
Impossible to escape from reality
Deep inside I know that I have to face it
To understand it would be able to escape.