Rew - Derealization

I didn't mean to scare you
How'd you know
I could never live without you
Strip away the irony
Sincerely hopeless now
Why don't you hurt like I do
If pain is all the same
I wanted to be happy
But I'm changing my ways
Everything's absurd
Nothing feels the same
Reality behind the curtain
Never went away I'm certain

I used to cry, now I'm standing still
Don't wanna hate myself this much
I can't even feel your touch
You still wonder why I don't feel real
Laying here between your arms
I could never feel harm

Tears like stone, forever
Do I ever pull at the tether
I'll take my time
You would even care
Making up the same lie
I could never bear the
Pain like you do
Is loving me strange
I wanted to be happy
Something got in the way
And now I'm shaky and I'm bored
I guess I wanted more
Reality behind the curtain
Never went away I'm certain

I'll never open my blinds anymore
I'm standing still, I'm standing still
I don't talk to my friends, not a word
I'm standing still
I'm standing still
When I am this afraid

I used to wonder why I don't feel real
Don't wanna hate myself this much
I can't even feel your touch
You still wonder why I don't feel real
Don't wanna hate myself this much
I can't even feel your touch
You still wonder why I don't feel real