Slum Lust - Missing Your Wake

So what’s next? To let myself go?
Life closed the stretch of that road.
I could have been there in the end, but selfishness left me alone.
I’ve dropped a lot of my hopes. No home, and nowhere to go.
Tried not to stress, but now you're dead and buried.
How could I have known the end of your life would that sudden?
I felt so attacked. I’m Caving in.
Might fade away just to escape what I know.
But that’s how we die, and it’s sad.
Forget all the plans that we had. I’m Caving in.
Might fade away just to escape what I know.
What's next? To let myself go?
Life closed the stretch of that road.
I could have been there in the end, but selfishness left me alone.
I’ve dropped a lot of my hopes. No home, and nowhere to go.
Tried not to stress, but now you're dead and buried.
How could I have known?

("I know when I said goodbye to him, that it wasn't goodbye forever. When I see him again he won't be in pain, and he won't be weak")

But that’s how we die, and it’s sad.
Forget all the plans that we had.
I’m Caving in.
Might fade away just to escape what I know.