Absorbed in Thought - Fear/Mother Breathe

Not even a cancer in my little toe
Could smash me up and down five days in a row,
Like this neverending freezing fear
which was already bread into me;
I can't defy the fear's persistence,
I'm just afraid of my existence!

Creeping-audible-mostly-at night,
Reaching-tiniest-pieces-of my broken soul.

Fear is able to eat your soul
- Your inner everflow,
Forging me to a constant change
Between orders and frivolity - that's strange;
Pressed into an endless misery,
I am my own minority!


I cannot stop those feelings,
I feel senile
...but my soul is seething!
I cannot defy my feelings,
I hope my lungs
...won't stop breathing.

If only one person could see,
This is a fulltime activity;
My confused thoughts are forcing me
To exhaust myself - I already see
The horrible end awaiting me:
Dropping out of society.

Creeping-audible-mostly-at night,
Reaching-tiniest-pieces-of my broken soul.

Source of fear
Always the same to complete
The circle of pain!

I cannot stop those feelings,
I feel senile
...but my soul is seething!
I cannot defy my feelings,
I hope my lungs
...won't stop breathing.