Automatic Loveletter - Cruel Cruel

I wanna run away
To somewhere far and somewhere safe
So scared of this place
Cause you don't even know me
And you don't even care that I've been lonely
And tired of fighting in the den of the lions where I won't even try

And in the dead of the night I wait
Early morning and I still haven't got some sleep
Call me crazy
Call me baby
You can call me weak
You don't even know, no you don't even know

That the weight of the world on me
I've been there and back again
And it seems to me
That a promise isn't something you keep
And a secret never lasts
It only sees what you see

Cause it's a cruel cruel ride
And if you want to come inside
You better sit up and shut your eyes
And hold on for dear life
Cause if you don't then you will surely lose your mind
But I won't

I wanna hide my face
I wanna find the strength to get through this
Oh I know I can do it
It's the taste in my mouth
It's the nauseousness
It's my stomach in knots forming cascades of gunshots
Leaving me holding a pen and this page and these words filled with rage

In the dead of the night I wait
Early morning and I still haven't got some sleep
Call me crazy
Call me baby
You can call me weak
Because you don't even know

Cause it's a cruel cruel ride
And if you want to come inside
You better sit up and shut your eyes
And hold on for dear life
Cause if you don't then you will surely lose your mind
But I won't
I won't

"Hello, can anyone hear me?"
"Oh, does anyone know me?"
"No, can anyone hear me?"
"No, can anyone love me?"
"No, can anyone, can anyone hear me?"

Cause it's a cruel cruel ride
And if you want to come inside
You better sit up and shut your eyes
And hold on for dear life
Cause if you don't then you will surely lose your mind
But I won't
But I won't
I won't
I won't