Axe Ripper - The Struggle

Pry open my eyes, wake up in a cold sweat
Grueling nightmares I endure every time I
Lay in the bed after another fucking day
That I wish I'd never awake

Biting my nails every ass crack of dawn
Ripping my hair out as dusk approaches
Dreading the outside perils that await me
Again and again and again...

Paranoid broken and restless
It seems there is no end
Losing color in my face
As my eyes droop down and darken

Trying to solve my problems
But they all keep crashing down
Trying to mend the unmendable
Every day, week and month and year

Thought I was ready to take on the day
But my ambitions were a lost cause
A 50 mile run with the weight of the world on my back
Garnished with my obligations

Couldn't figure out where to start
So I nailed my ass to the mattress
Threw my cares out the window
Drowned out the rest with a fifth

Fucked up beyond all recognition
Laying in bed, gathering filth
Wasting away as the sky turns black
Inebriated and starving to death

Fucked up beyond all recognition
Slowly awaiting my imminent downfall
Wasting away as the sky turns black
Descending into a downward spiral

The struggle continues day after day
The pain keeps getting stronger
Malnourishment and misery prevail
As my liquor cabinet empties

Dry heaving and urinating blood
As my final hour draws near
Shambling towards the last half gallon
I get on my knees and collapse

Face down on the hardwood floor
And I can't drink anymore
Hourglass, last grain of sand
Touched by the reaper's cold, dead hands