Bonecarver - Thorned

Now I feel with deep regret
All those decisions that I made in the past
Thinking that I needed those feels
While now my body is laid to rest

The ghosts in my head want me to turn my temple into ruins.
I don't know how to stop them and tell them to leave me alone
They are very strong and they know my weaknes

They make me feel good, but in the shadows they mistreat me
They say they love me, but they really hate me
I don't want this life, I never wanted this way
I know I'm not alone, almost everyone has them
In the presence of the night they get bigger
Although it doesn't matter when, because they always defeat me

Now I feel with deep regret
All those decisions that I made in the past
Thinking that I needed those feels
While now my body is laid to rest

I am led astray
I do things I don't want to do
I feel I'm cursed
So much risk will get me damned
I almost forgot what the sun was like
Freedom is a precious commodity
I feel I now have the strength to win
My eyes are no longer red and black

Slave of my own obsession
Corrupted to the depths of my being
A soul that wanders in sorrow
Shameless and oblivious to the outside world

Temptations
How can I say no?
Visions
Are they real?
Pressure
Is it necessary?
Pain

Corrupted by their forbidden substance
Erosion in my bones
My veins burn
My skin dries until it falls off by itself
My skin dries until it falls off by itself

Now I feel with deep regret
All those decisions that I made in the past
Thinking that I needed those feels
While now my body is laid to rest

The ghosts are gone
But they left hidden inside me
A time bomb
That exploded when I was finally happy