Dearest - I'm Thinking Of Ending Things

I'm running out of maneuvers
Something tells me I'm not ready
And do I still have a future
If I can't let go of every
Past mistake that haunts me?
Strength is down to nothing
And now I don't recognize the sunlight

I don't know why I wake up anymore
I can't decide if life's worth fighting for
How long can I exist on borrowed time?
Outside the walls of worry, where I rot
The world around me changed, but I could not
How long can I exist on borrowed time?

Chasing the night to fill the dark days
Block out the light, 'cause I don't want to wait
I never thought that I would end up like this
Caught up in all the chances I missed
Living my life never felt more dishonest
Don't recognize myself today

(I don't know why)
All of the world is alright
(I can't decide)
If I should even try

I don't know why I wake up anymore
I can't decide if life's worth fighting for
How long can I exist on borrowed time?
Outside the walls of worry, where I rot
The world around me changed, but I could not
How long can I exist on borrowed time?

All of the world feels wrong
And I can't feel myself no more
They all seem fine
But it's just not right in my eyes
All of the world feels wrong
And I can't feel myself no more
They all seem fine
But it's just not right in my eyes
In my eyes[Chorus]
I don't know why I wake up anymore
I can't decide if life's worth fighting for
How long can I exist on borrowed time?
Outside the walls of worry, where I rot
The world around me changed, but I could not
How long can I exist on borrowed time?