Extortionist - A Grim Disconnect

White lies.
I never speak my mind because I'm confined by all the thoughts within.
So I just disguise this pain I'm living with and I just hope that one day I will feel like myself again.
Lost time.
I try to cope with it but I lost my mind and I can't seem to get a grip.
I try to pull myself out of this shit.
A grim disconnect is all I'm left with.

All of the time thats' been wasted away while my minds' been astray.
The look on my mother's face when she said “You haven't been the same.”

And I feel like a ghost without a place to roam.
Give in and just let go.
Disconnect from everything I know.

Faking happiness, I feel so full of shit.
Why can't I get a grip?
I can't explain it but my mind, it starts to slip into an endless pit.
How do I tell the ones i love I'm getting sick, when no one fucking gets it?
A grim disconnect is all I'm left with.

All of the time thats' been wasted away while my minds' been astray.
The look on my mother's face when she said “You haven't been the same.
Trying so hard to connect with the good that surrounds me.
But there's no emotion inside now all I feel is nothing.

All that I feel is nothing.
What will it take to feel something?

And I feel like a ghost without a place to roam.
Give in and just let go.
Disconnect from everything I know.

Will I find peace?
I'm so tired and empty.
No I'm not the same and I can't be saved.

And I feel like a ghost without a place to roam.
Give in and just let go.
Disconnect from everything I know.