Jelani Aryeh - Helvetica

This is all for show
I can't sit and say that I'm not stuggling
To hold my weight and every single bone
But the fall will soon approach
And summer will escape
Leaving me relatively warm
And me losing more of form

I swear this sabotage is reoccurring
And yeah my retina blurring
This set of horns that forming
Ain't from my taurus portion
Volume at the max
My bodies bathing in distortion
I lean on lyrics as a simple form of reassurance
I'm off and medicating
I should be meditating
I blur the lines when i be dipping into different states
And now my body's shaking
While i go off and praying
My spirit seeks an exit
I'm hyperventilating

I passed a dead hawk in fairbanks ranch
Image in a film of Gus van Sants
Mid' October dusks approaches and diablo dances
Lets some laughter out his mouth that nigga sound like Frances Ha
It's been a moment since i've been in awe
I've grown accustomed to the same old thoughts
Plaster pulls away my piece
I think it's done its job
I tend to always overthink until i'm not involved

But i'll dance around my room
And play my big sister solange
500 seniors at my school
And only three black males to walk
Funny how we're all interracial
Thanks for the page in the yearbook
Want you to know that i'm grateful but who am i kidding ?
That shit feels like a milestone
Elementary me would try to find a page that i was on
Second grade on page thirty seven
On the hill they cut me out but just enough where my hands in
Switch those numbers round
Skip eleven years and i'm standing
I see my picture in print
I'm really feeling the love
And it makes me feel like a prince
Riding with my white stallion
And for now she's a lexus
Afro seen through the tint
See the world cause it's precious

This is all for show
I can't sit and say that I'm not stuggling
To hold my weight and every single bone
But the fall will soon approach
And summer will escape
Leaving me relatively warm
And me losing more of form