Streetlight Fire - Rapture

I spent far too long facing at the sky
blaming you for all the disconnection in my life
The sun finally made me blind,
so I spent some time to look inside

i felt my honesty cross its petty fingers
when it said the fight was worth it
toast to your steady hands and fearfulness of
misguided ambition and unstable conditions

I won't let myself lose all the hope I had saved up
from last time i felt triumph
my ego won't let me sink past the shoulders of lesser men,
but I can't help but relate to their circumstances

i felt my honesty cross its petty fingers
when it said the fight was worth it
toast to your steady hands and fearfulness of
misguided ambition and unstable conditions

there is glory in this sadness
and holiness in its acceptance
I will not be a stranger to the warmth or an anchor to your world
I've been staying up these nights with fear of the permanence
I know I shouldn't have left
but the words I spoke lacked the hope I held when this mattered to you
clean up the wounds you left
let summer rain wash fear away
my heart is no shipwreck
just a piece of me that needs you to stay
I've been sleeping in hoping these days would pass fast
let the season take its toll
until my perspective finds beauty in waking up alone