Condition Critical - 44 Caliber Brain Surgery

Incarcerated by my fear, paranoia
I'm condemned to live a wretched life
Confinement in a sterile world isolation
Disconjunction with society

Boiling my food to exhume the parasites
Diet infectious
Water flowing through, filters for distilling
Organisms infesting
Oxygen tanks, a breathing apparatus
Perpetuates vitality

Beleaguered by repulsion of defilement
Functional disorder of the mind
Obsessive aberration of absolute purity
Neurotic compulsion

Accursed affliction
Gnawing lamentation
Deteriorating intellect
Distortion of perception
Self proclaimed diagnosis
Drastic resolution
Self prescribe a red hot slug
White knuckle pistol grip
Load the chamber, hammer cocked
Jam the barrel in my mouth

Need to reprieve from my misery
Unrelenting anxiety

All ask is one final plea
.44 caliber brain surgery... surgery

Purgatorial euphorium
Banish my affliction
Lead forged entry wound
Exempting me from melancholic psychosis
Cybernetic annihilation
Finally set me free

Released from my coma
Denied death's crushing jaws
Prolonged tortured existence
Informed by physicians
An amateur lobotomy
Deprived of an autopsy

Psychotic abortion
Grey matter negated
Premeditated remedy
Procedure of extremity
Thought I had a master plan
.44 in my hand
Assassination was my goal
Polluted filthy world a loathe
Suicide with no success
Abolished my obsessiveness

Propelled the cure emphatically
Change convictions radically

Practising without a degree
.44 caliber brain surgery