Deep-pression - When I End My Life

hatred...
in embers...
they all will be put out soon
with waters of the damned
deadwaters
that float through me
a delicate breeze
brought bad news to my head
they rised
on my rocks higher
than my defence
can reach...
sad words through my memories
they cut me
i have no more tears for this
they put out fires
of my disease
putting us out
forever
hot sands, they drink my soul
when i try to call her name
is spasms...
arrogance, a newborn
smelling with nivea cream
i will take care of it
so many days...
months now
i thought im suicide kid
but i hail life
since all were lost
silence tries to scream
the double bottom
is touched
no more peace
in gardens of god
anger...
a foundation
of isolation
blossoms so well
upon the soil im built with
feed my roots
save me from this
i dont beg
just whisper to my hands
hiding my face in them
torn apart like a small bird
slayed with eagle's claws
fall...
fall with me
if you dont have the words
to calm me down...
feel through me...
read through me...
check my bed... is it cold?
feel through me...
read through me...
feel empty when it's cold
feel lonely when talking to me
cry in silence
i know you do it in the nights!
cry through silence
cry through me...