Egoistic - Consternation

As the heart has stopped
And it hurts no more
No one watches, no one knows
The cause
The convulsions release one breath
Is this it? Is this the end?
Is there something I should say?
Or maybe not

Crawling under heavy sight
Lost ability to react
Just not sure what step to take
Or just sit and wait
A consternation within the mind
Decomposition of what’s inside
Can’t reject it totally
Nor live through it

And in this moment, I am dragging down in fear
And in the same breath all is lost
The only question coming into troubled brain:
Does it make a sense to carry on?

In consternation, out of control and without will
Consternation, so close to you but out of touch
In consternation, out of control and without will
Consternation, so close to you but out of touch