Extortionist - Malediction

Every day was a bet that I made against my own life.
Gambling with death, waiting for the day that I'll never wake up again.
Swallowed everything that stood in my way.
Just to relieve myself of the pain.
For just a moment of escape.
Until my eyes faded to black and I couldn't see straight.

I gave up my worth.
Tossed my morals in the dirt just to forget every time i've been hurt
But it only made everything worse.
This addiction is a curse.

I wont deny that this addiction was my choice.
But now I find myself wishing i was blind.
So that I would have an excuse as to why.
I cant look my.. I cant look my own mother in her eyes.

I cant look my own mother in her eyes.

Surround yourself with these demons.
The start of the census.
Forget this life and escape.
Relapse to a familiar plane.
Return to regression.

Is this substance a god-send?
Alive, but cannot feel the pain.

Is this substance a god-send?

My consciousness has fallen behind.
Look into my eyes.
I'm everything I once despised.
No I'm drowning in these fucking cold sweats.
Let my eyes fade to black and let darkness commence.

Let my eyes fade to black.