Gawne - The Last Of Us

[Chorus]
I been so depressed these days I feel like I'ma die
Even when with you, I still got demons on my mind
Tried to run away, but there was nowhere I could (Hide)
No one left to save me, maybe I should say goodbye

[Verse 1]
Say goodbye, pain in my
I'm like a bear in Chicago, the nights of the '85 [?]
I pray to God I'll become greater than anyone
Who ever made a rhyme
Don't matter who's dead or alive, I'm on top of the mountain
It's been a ride
Face it, I was never s'posed to win
Face it, I was probably gonna quit
Face it, I would never beat the odds
I said they could suck on my dick with no latex on the apex
Predator of the game, yes
Wanna demonstrate that I'm
Eighty-eight times better than you nameless motherfuckers
You ain't really nothin' but a, uh, pain in the anus
Y'all finna reap what you sought, put a needle and string in your veins
Then I pull out the lazers
Scar tissues down your legs
[?] vine the way you rip cages
Through another fucking game
School is never what I favoured
Quit the first trimester
Like when aborting a baby
Still I've always had a labor
Lord, forgive me for what I know now
What I do I been beat up, bruised and left broken
Every day I grew colder
Still talkin' to my demons
What you know about an omen?
Medicated since '06
Cold turkey went sober
Life was given a new meaning
Now that I'm off of that dosage
I can finally feel emotions
Funny thing about emotion
I can't seem to control it
Doctor said I'm bipolar
Always losin' my composure
People tellin' me I'm crazy
I just tell 'em what I always tell 'em
That I already fuckin' know this
Rotated cuff swollen
Yep, it hurts, so in other words, I got a chip on my shoulder

[Chorus]
I been so depressed these days I feel like I'ma die
Even when with you, I still got demons on my mind
Tried to run away, but there was nowhere I could (Hide)
No one left to save me, maybe I should say goodbye
No one left to save me, maybe I should say goodbye

[Verse 2]
Yeah, my life's been a little bit crazy
Growin' up as a kid, I was so anxious every day
Tried to run astray but I couldn't get away from the pain
That was comin' from my own brain
I would get a migraine every time I went outside
But I still tried to lie to my mom and tell her that I'm fine when I really was not okay
Why was I this way? I think I'ma say
Me when I cry 'cause he won't hear my pain
Even when I pray, even when I fell
Headache at myself, hoping I wasn't well
No one gave me help, did it by myself
What I've been through was nothing short of hell
There were days where I used to shriek and yell
Like a screaming child lettin' the demons out
Screaming, had enough of my demons feeding
Must erupt enough peace to leave 'em
Memories to cut deep, yeah, nothing's really gonna stop that bleeding
Last of us, I'ma die and breathe
But the irony's that I can finally see
That monster growin' inside of me was nothing more than anxiety