Kat Von D - Vanish

Vanishing the world around me
Leaving ash alone
My crown of thorns shows no mercy
But it's my own
A graces walls with all my failures
What have I become?

I think it's time for my forgiveness
Lick these wounds to heal
I'm losing faith, the silent poison
Pain I'd like to feel
I know it's time
Lay down, surrender
Someone take control

Cause I'm afraid to love
Cause I'm afraid I'll leave
I'm living with these lies
That only I believe

And I don't want to walk
But I don't wanna run
Cause I'm afraid of failing
In front of everyone

Hold me down and hurt my feelings
I will do the same
Or cry inside, disappointed
Taking all the blame
The darkest hour always finds me
Pulling far away

Cause I'm afraid to win
Cause I don't wanna lose
And I'm afraid of falling
Under harsh review

And I'm afraid to live
And I'm too tired to try
Hide behind these shadows
Turn off all the lights

This never ending longing feeling
Waiting to be loved
I still believe in end forever
But it never comes

I'm afraid to love
Cause I'm afraid I'll leave
I'm living with these lies
That only I believe

And I'm afraid to walk
I don't wanna run
And I'm afraid of hurting
Myself and everyone