Streetlight Fire - Thunder

So what if I'm just starved for attention
There are far worse things to accuse me of
Excuses derived from better times don't do you justice
Exhaustion is no place to foster love
Have I burned enough for the mistakes that I've made?
Depends on who you ask, but I hope you say that I have
These scars have made their mark but this skin won't shed quietly
At whose expense do I forgo humility?

You are the winter that I brave?
I am just the soul that you couldn't save
Let's chalk it up to youth and those petty things I couldn't do
This is a bridge that I can't cross with you

And I held on so long I could hear the bones in my hands crack
Mocking the way I gave in to your petty fears and lacking sense of tact
I'll take the pieces left with me
I'll build something holy
I'll build something clean
By July I hope we find January didn't leave us stuck in time

You are the winter that I braved
I am just the soul that you could not save
Let's chalk it up to youth
and those petty things that I couldn't prove
This is a bridge that I can't cross with you

I fold, you win
But the sun will shine over my world
with or without you in it

Would you trade in this pain if it meant that you couldn't feel a thing?