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I know :
clouds have gathered above
and incomplete sentences
torn apart in half.
I know :
This sinister gale
from last of storms,
Now has a different scent.
Tightly close my eyes
And bring me to where
I don't have to do anything -
Where sense is gone.

Don't force me to want,
to know and feel.
Shed me in the deep
and don't run your words back.
I'll fly just like a smoke,
"farewell" said with one breath.
I'll fall apart in dust along with silence
and it doesn't change much.
I'll be gone like dawn, before disappointment
will look inside my eyes during a daytime.
Every punchline, I know now.
And I don't want to watch -
I know how it's going to end.

I want to
escape to nowhere.
Everyday I find
undiscovered land.
I know :
I'm creating since years
a little paradise
from my childhood's dreams.
To survive what's there.
Even closed doors
won't cover me from the storm.
even doors that leads to very me,
where no one has ever been.

Don't force me to want,
to know and feel.
Shed me in the deep
and don't run your words back.
I'll fly just like a smoke,
"farewell" said with one breath.
I'll fall apart in dust along with silence
and it doesn't change much.
I'll be gone like dawn, before disappointment
will look inside my eyes during a daytime.
Every punchline, I know now.
And I don't want to watch -
I know how it's going to end.

I'm not looking
I don't want to stare.