My Own Abyss - Without Control

You've turned my life into fear

I've been living in the nightmare
And I seemed to get away
But you've spread poison with a vengeance
Into another generation
It's never gonna stop

Remaining scars of committed sins
They are not going away, nor being erased
They live on

Running from addiction
Every breath is like a lure
You were witness to my suffering
Now you bring down the pain on you
You were witness to my suffering
Now you bring down the pain on you

I'm on my knees
I can't hold on
I can't hold on
My hope is gone
Been up the hill
Now down in the hole
I'm back for more
Without control

The recurring bloody nightmare
That reminds me every time
Of irreversible corruption
Growing up from unaware choices
Please get me out of here

I'm on my knees
I can't hold on
I can't hold on
My hope is gone
Been up the hill
Now down in the hole
I'm back for more
Without control

I'm living in the nightmare

(You've turned my life into fear
And I seemed to get away
But you've spread poison again
It is never gonna end
Remaining scars of the sins
They are not going away
They are not being erased
It is never gonna end)

I have been up, I have been down
And every day I've been in a fight
With something that's out of control
With my own mind, one deeply lost
At age of twelve could've been my end
Now you intend to follow me
I'm powerless to prevent that
Nothing new under the sun

I'm on my knees
I can't hold on
I can't hold on
My hope is gone
Been up the hill
Now down in the hole
My world is ending but
I keep going back for more
My world is ending but
I keep going back for more

My world is ending but
I keep going back for more

Uninterrupted nightmare
Lasting since I remember
Wake me up from this horror
Can't stand it any longer