Polaris - Dissipate

I never asked for this burden
I never asked for this cross that I bear on my back
But like an ulcer scratching against my tongue
I can't leave it alone
So you can find me down at the bottom
With a stomach full of stones

I can't outrun my fate, it follows like a shadow
I put all of my faith in a saint without a halo
But I won't die pretending I'm not intending
To see this through until I too become invisible to you

So pull me under, be sure to leave no trace
Never wonder, I see it on your face

What do I have to do to demonstrate
The way it makes me feel and think?
I feel like I could fucking suffocate
And you would barely blink
I could suffocate and you would barely blink

So I'll sink, searching for an answer
With a stomach full of stones
These thoughts are like a cancer
Growing in my bones

I've made this hell my home
Never again, sever the sin from within my soul
The darker half that makes me whole

I was only dreaming
I was never here
I was only dreaming
Of how I'll disappear

I can't outrun my fate, it follows like a shadow
I put all of my faith in a saint without a halo
But I won't die pretending I'm not intending
To see this through until I too become invisible to you

(I was only dreaming)
Invisible to you
(I was never here)
But I won't die pretending
I'm not intending to see this through
Until I too become invisible to you

I long to leave the past behind
And tear out the thorn that's in my side