SINUS - Loneliness

I used to be indifferent,
blaming innocence for my existence.
My quiet existence.
And who did answer to my loneliness?
Feeling prickly thorns on my dreams,
I’d fallen asleep.
Did I have to try what was solitude?

Why she came when I had enough to make
my soul free? She held me tightly.
Oh God! Her sight has made me feeling alive!
Dance was beautiful like our love.

She was whispering she loves me and she needs me,
I’m fulfilment of her life.
And I was peering deeply in her eyes and in her heart.
She only skimmed my fragile me…
Growing precipice between us ruined me inside out.
Years of great love we left behind!
And how the life can be unfair!
It’s the next time I’m feeling hurt
and I’m alone…

Crowded shells already here,
laughing and waiting for me.
If I had been much more prudently,
now I would not be like ray,
at the end of day, at the sunset.
Emptiness in my head!
I need to hide, but I don’t know where!
It’s no use in living without aim!
There’s only one way now, just die,
saying no good bye!
Just only die…

Pushing through the shadows, now I see!
Living it down is such a dream!
And nothing is more strange, than wake alone!
Loneliness for ever more!
For ever more…