To Kill Achilles - There's No Right Way to Say This....

I am tired
Alone again
Dreaming of times that were better spent
A time where I could rest my eyes
And fall asleep without drinking myself blind

I'll keep these thoughts so close
Cause they're all that I have left
I'll keep them locked inside
Too scared to damage my pride

I was always told to suffer
Told to suffer in silence
So when the world it bares it's teeth
Don't burden your friends for their guidance
Just deal with it all by yourself
Be a man, show some strength
I can't deal with this all by myself
But men don't ask for help

So if I need something it's delivered to my door
No I don't need to speak anymore
And even when I'm out with friends we're all immersed in our phones
So I sit in silence and breath cigarette smoke
If I have problems I post them
Praying for answers from the unknown
Tell me when did an icon become more than someone I adore?

I was always told to suffer
Told to suffer in silence
So when the world it bares it's teeth
Don't burden your friends for their guidance
Just deal with it all by yourself
Be a man, show some strength
I can't deal with this all by myself
But men don't ask for help

See from a young age you're told boys don't cry, men don't have feelings and never to share your thoughts or anxieties with anyone incase you look weak
But sometimes
I just wish I could talk to someone