New Model Army - Dawn

I get so angry and helpless
There’s no way back from this spiral
Something always has to give
And nothing is given for nothing

The drug is in my veins now
Your life is your own for the taking
My body must be slowing down now
But my heart is at the speed of flying

I’m walking out, I close the door
I’m down the steps for the last time
You can lose too much to ever want to start
Over again - over again

When I look back and think about it
All I see is her face staring into mine
I feel the child holding onto me
I’m smelling his sweet smell of innocence

The world has become too silent
This night it seems everlasting
The clocks ticking on like dripping water
But the hands are not moving

I’m walking out, I close the door
I’m down the steps for the last time
Then dawn breaks open in faded blue
And the sounds of the city waking

I’m walking out, I close the door
I’m down the steps for the last time
But the grass is soaked with fallen dew
And the sun is almost rising