Matthias - Backwards

Backwards, forwards,
I'm exploring the borders of,
Everything I want,
Everything I need,

Lethal Doses,
of my own emotions,
Seep into my dreams,
and Paralyze me,


I pick myself up off the ground,
I keep telling myself,
No, I'm not backing down,
I keep telling myself,
The best is still yet to come,
I keep telling myself,
It's darkest before the dawn,


I'm going backwards,
And I'm made to believe,
I'm moving forwards,
And I'm chasing my dreams
But I'll be,
Just who I want to be,
Without you controlling,
Controlling me.


Toxic thoughts can make me,
easily drop this,
But I won't shift my step,
So there's nothing to regret,

I'm broken and coping,
with this broken hope and,
I kept blaming them,
when the doubt came from within,

No more ugly white lies,
I keep telling myself,
This time I'm gonna try,
I'm not just telling myself,
The best is still yet to come,
I keep telling myself,
It's darkest before the dawn,

I'm going backwards,
And I'm made to believe,
I'm moving forwards,
And I'm chasing my dreams
But I'll be,
Just who I want to be,
Without you controlling,
Controlling me.

I will be seen and be heard
And they hang on my every word
I will break free from the chains
And beat anything you throw in my way

I will be seen and be heard
And they hang on my every word
I will break free from the chains
And beat anything you throw in my way